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Suicidal thoughts at certain times of day.

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I have an issue with suicidal thoughts at certain times of day. When I am tired mostly (which of course is often with depression) . Mornings and nights are the worse for some reason at night I have this reoccurring image of <guidelines> just before falling asleep. In the morning it's more of a feeling and reoccurring line of thought "ugh I dont want to start again I wish this was just over, never getting out of bed sounds nice" ect.

I was wondering if any of you have had something similar in regards to specific intervals of thoughts or have any coping strategies you have used.

I also must note that I take my lexapro dose in the morning and these are the two farthest conscious moments from my last does that I have. I feel like that may be a factor. Or just being so tired that unconcious thoughts overwhelm the concious ones.
 
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I don't have any coping methods, but when I'm depressed or have anxiety I've noticed it can be a lot worse in the morning, cause it's reality hitting me all over again when I wake up.

I always hear a lot of people start thinking about deeper stuff and depressing stuff at night, the later it gets, and I second that. I can have more depressing thoughts the later into the night it gets too, although other times I find night time more relaxing for some reason
 
#3
Laying in bed at night and waking up in the morning is the worst for me. I rarely sleep more than a couple hours at a time just because I’m thinking non stop, or a bad dream will wake me up.

I try and get out when needed just to get fresh air and stretch and that does wonders for me. Just a change of scenery does a 180 for my mood. I know that’s not a whole lot to go on but if I continue sitting or laying around, all I do is think and that is the worst possible thing for my mood. I hate going to public places and being around people, but if walking to the store refreshes me for a couple hours, it’s worth it. I need social interaction at some point, whether it’s being helped at the store or talking to someone I know. or I am stuck in a dark hole. Sucks being lonely but at the same time, not wanting to be around anyone...
 
#5
My suicidal thoughts always seem to be worse in the evenings. I'm not sure if it is because there is less to distract me as the day is winding down or possibly because something has "triggered" the suicidal thoughts during the day that I'm dwelling on later that day. I'm not sure if this is unusual or not.
 
#6
yeah it definitely has to do with less distractions when I'm laying there with my thoughts. I honestly dread when the day is over, or when I wake up and it's really early and I have no will power to get out of bed or do anything with the day.
 
#7
yes the silence on night and morning seem to be a factor. Also i wonder if it is more in line wht "decision fatigue" or spoon theory. at night I just feel I dont have the energy to will any CBT into practice.

mornings seems different though. as I've told my therapist the person that snoozes the alarm clock doesnt feel like the same person that set it. Most days it talke 3-4 hours to start feeling like me again.
 

MarvelFan

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I have an issue with suicidal thoughts at certain times of day. When I am tired mostly (which of course is often with depression) . Mornings and nights are the worse for some reason at night I have this reoccurring image of bleeding out just before falling asleep. In the morning it's more of a feeling and reoccurring line of thought "ugh I dont want to start again I wish this was just over, never getting out of bed sounds nice" ect.

I was wondering if any of you have had something similar in regards to specific intervals of thoughts or have any coping strategies you have used.

I also must note that I take my lexapro dose in the morning and these are the two farthest conscious moments from my last does that I have. I feel like that may be a factor. Or just being so tired that unconcious thoughts overwhelm the concious ones.
My sister takes Lexipro its an antidepression pill and also an anti anxiety pill it takes a month to get used to and if you got that far you are on your way because she tellls me now being on it for a couple years she is way more happy. I dont like to use sayings too much but this one helps me out alot I think its from Elvis Presley who said "Life is a Stage and we all got to play our part"
 
#9
Yes lexapro has helped me immensely. my affects where immediate (borderline maniac)then about that month timeline you spoke about I leveled out to "normal" and I have been taking it for a few years now(dosage adjusted once).

These thoughts are no longer a risk. But fall more in the annoying and unhealthy column.
 

SkyTree

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I cope by doing things I enjoy like playing video games, listening to music, watching movies/shows, etc. Try to find what you're passionate about and do more of that. You will enjoy life more and hopefully will have less suicidal thoughts!
 

MarvelFan

Vanity of Vanities
#11
Yes lexapro has helped me immensely. my affects where immediate (borderline maniac)then about that month timeline you spoke about I leveled out to "normal" and I have been taking it for a few years now(dosage adjusted once).

These thoughts are no longer a risk. But fall more in the annoying and unhealthy column.
But here is the thing I like talking to people like us which must make me weird but I dont care about annoying and unhealthy those are people sorry to say I love all of us.
Fuck All The Perfect People - Chip Taylor & The New Ukrainians

Sounds like Willy Nelson to me. Me and my sis and my nana met Willy at the Riverside casino when we were little on the side of his bad ass bus and he took pics with us lol. *hug
 

JDot

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Hi @rstreet3 My bad thoughts tend to happen at night. They're nowhere near as bad as they used to be since I've been taking risperidone. I also have images in my mind of me taking my life or bad things happening to me. I don't want to do it, but I have those images for some reason. When I have these images, I focus my mind on something else. Music helps.
 
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