Hey... Im thinking about suicide all the time. It drives me crazyyy. Now, my girl just dumped me.. and the pain is just........ and to know its your fault, the pain is even harder!!! She was my last hope. My light that kept me going. I try go out with my friends,I try to do something else, buts its impossible. I hate everything, and have done so for a long time. Life is meaningless. Doing the same fucking thing every day, and then you die. I keep thinking :I rather die young and beautiful then old and stinky. Whats up people? Isnt this shit hard? I dont have the guts do it!! YET! But I want too... omg, i cant stand this feeling.