Well, it should come as no suprise to people here who know me and my situation, but I had suicidal thoughts again last night. Only for a moment. But it got me thinking, much like Alcoholism is a disease, one that can really never be cured, I suspect that suicidal ideation is a disease as well. We combat it with rx meds, but I think from time to time these thoughts will just occur. I think that is why sites like this one are so vitally important. Just having a place to come to when those thoughts occur, can help greatly. Anyway, just a thought I had.