have them every single day.. EVERY single day I'm thinking bout killing myself.. Every time it is a different way.. I've got plenty of ways! The only one thing which stops me it is my mum, brother and sister.. I know they gonna suffer.. but i feel worse and worse... i can't handle it anymore. I don't see a point of me being here. I don't enjoy life anymore, i have nothin to look forward to.. i have no plans.. i work, cos everyone does.. i go to college, cos people my age do it.. i meet my friends cos other do it also.. i eat, co we have to eat.. even when i smile, it is not honest.. i don't do it cos i want to.. i do all the things cos i think that;s the way it should be... i'd love to die right now!!!! just to end this pointless life.. just to stop this pain inside me..