I have been accused and charged with some disgusting crimes that I know deep down I haven't committed. I have no fight left in me, although I have a strong legal team behind me. I have already seen how people have reacted about my private life and how their minds have changed on my guilt. All of my private life will come tumbling out in open court. If I die it is because I have just become so mentally and physically exhausted that I have nothing left to give, not because I am guilty. Whilst my darling amazing wife is all that is keeping me alive at the moment I am not allowed to communicate with her. Would my death mean that people will assume I am guilty?