I'm new to this forum, I have never posted on one of these before, as far as I know. I'm hoping to find out if anyone else has had similar experiences to me, as so far I feel that I really am the only one. A lot of people I have met have never attempted suicide in their lives, it is only a thought that passes quite quickly. If they ever have thought about it obsessively it started around 14/15. My own thoughts started at about 8 years old. My first attempt was when I was 10 years old. I am now 26 and have never managed to get rid of the feeling that life really is not as great as everyone insists on telling me. Is there anyone else who started thinking and attempting so young? I feel like I really am the only one, and I'm starting to think that this fact is having an effect on the people who are 'supposedly' treating me. No one ever expresses outright incredulous expressions, they've obviously been too well trained for that. But I still get the nagging feeling that they are surprised. Especially as I've never heard the cliche line "You're not alone" although I've heard many others. If anyone could tell me their thoughts/experiences I'd be really grateful and interested to know. Thanks for listening.