Hello everyone. This is my first post here. I feel like I have no one to talk about what I did, at least no one that could understand. This past Sunday I <Mod Edit: Methods> to kill myself, but unfortunately here I am... I don't remember much. I think I saw a nurse picking me up to go to an ambulance, I remember someone at the hospital sticking a tube up my nose and I yanked it off, there was blood everywhere, and then it's all a blank. I woke up and they sent me home and that's when I saw all these cuts on my arms! I don't remember doing it! It's not the first time I <Mod Edit: Methods>, but not enough to lose conscience and almost go into a coma. I feel I can't go on any more. I know there are people going through way worse than me, but I just can't be here just for others... My parents are constantly arguing, and then they argue with me, they are unfair and aggressive, I have a brother that gives me no attention or help and her girlfriend is his priority! He's constantly around her, she knows his family needs his help and doesn't care, everyone loves her and feels pity for her and I'm left on side... I'm the one trying to keep this family together and they are more concerned about her and my brother than me. It might not be that way but it's what they show. Anything I say or do is always wrong... And I'm here feeling I'm selfish and worthless and last Sunday was so much to bear that I truly meant to kill myself... I don't want to be alive, not in a world so selfish, so self destructive, so dangerous, in a world I can't even count on my family to be here for me when I need... I just wanted to get this off my chest... Thank you for reading this.