I like learning, and being suicidal, like learning about suicide. In my spare time I enjoy reading various psychology books, medical books, biology books relating to human anatomy, and even a bit of chemistry. I think I've visited just about every website on the net to do with mental disorders, suicide, depression, etc. I have found the websites that also promote suicide, provide methods, including feedback from people who have witnessed/tried them, and even guides on how to successfully plan and execute a good suicide, including how to overcome the human survival instincts. Not to mention the fact I also have a powerful imagination, sense of logic, and improvisation. I have found myself addicted to educating myself on the topic, and realize that the more educated I become on the matter, the more likely I am to suceed when suffering from bouts of suicidal beliefs. Can anyone on here recommend any ways in which I could break the habit more effectively? I do have the want to break the habit, but I wish for some advice as to make the process easier for myself, thus increasing my chance of suceeding/not putting myself under too much emotional stress.