Iv tried to commit suicide so many times yet had so many failures. It really shows no one cares because everyone is oblivous to my attempts to be free. I overdosed about 6//7 months ago, and ended up retching for the whole night, and waking up the next day. As you can imagine i was very disappointed !!! Even though none of my family/friends know hw i feel, im now terrified that i will try to kill myself only to fail and be found by someone? i would hate to have to go through the pain of sitting and explain why i hate myself and and why i hate them. people always say that those who have suicidal feelings are attention seakers .but i completely disagree with this! i know myself and i believe i am completely sane when i say this..............I WANT TO DIE. and im sure many others will agree with this I just want to know if others agree that sometimes making the decision to end your life and actually go through with it is difficult because your afraid of being "saved" and having to justify ur actions? Please reply because i really wnt to know if others agree? I know thats why im afraid to go through with it, but i wonder if anyone else feels that same fear?