My lovely husband died on 3 June this year. It's only been 3 months and it's still so raw. He was a full of life character, loved life, loved family & friends. We have 2 boys (3 years old & 1 year old now) and he loved playing with them and proud to be a dad. After a very relaxing holiday in Switzerland we came home and he went back to work one day and said he felt a bit 'depressed'. This was surprising as he would have never said that before. Later that evening he had what I thought was a panic attack. The next day took him to the Doctors and she diagnosed panic attacks and gave him beta-blockers. The following day he wasn't himself but still took himself off to work. The following 2 days he just wasn't himself, he was agitated, loss of interest, anxious, couldn't sleep, hardly spoke - even to our 3 year old. The next day I took him to the Doctors again and saw a different Doctor. He barely spoke to her. I told her everything that had gone on in the last 4 days and she said he is severely depressed and straightaway prescribed anti-depressants. She asked how he felt about taking them and he shrugged. She said you will be on them for at least 6 months up to a year. They take 2 weeks to get into your system so you won't feel a benefit. Don't operate heavy machinery and don't drive (which he didn't anyway). The next day I went to work and left him sleeping. 3 hours later got a call from the Police to say that he'd been killed on the road by a lorry. The witness said he looked drunk and was swaying all over. He wasn't. He was 33. Why do they give out these tablets without warning. My life and my childrens lives have been ripped apart. My husband and their daddy is gone forever. I've just registered on this site to see if anyone else has had this happen to a loved one. I just don't know how I'll every understand. I am seeing a counsellor and it definitely helps, however, wanted to see if there was anyone else out there that has gone through a similar loss.