When you think you can't feel any lower in life, be sure to call 1.800.SUICIDE !! They have a great way of making you feel tiny and wanting to SH in under five minutes. :sad: I've called twice since joining this forum in 2006, I will never call another hotline again. The first was in the middle of the night, huddled in the corner of my bathroom shaking. I was about to crack and said 'maybe they would..understand? care?' I was all quiet and I'm sure not making much sense but I only paused to keep from crying and was hung up on. I had a major break down(2nd biggest) that night after he hung up. I was out of my mind and don't even remember all of it. The second time was yesterday morning. I remembered someone in chat talking about how they helped them find 'help' for free in their area. I was calm. I didn't feel too bad or low so I got up the courage to call. I asked for help and got a guy that sounded robotic. It was like the life was sucked out of him, and once again he made me feel like I was a waste of time. He didn't help me find counsel or therapy. When I tried talking with him about my issues and how I feel his voice and attitude changed to disgust. I got off the phone and broke into tears, Its been ages since I felt so tiny! so.. worthless. I just don't unerstand how these people help others.. how they could be helping anyone.