Hello, I don't know if I am really serious about suicide this time....ready to actually go through with it....or if it is just suicide ideation, as it has been for decades. If I am serious, I am not really sure I want to tell my therapist. Because if I am truly serious, I don't want to be stopped and the therapist would ensure I couldn't go through with it. And I don't want to risk that. But if I am serious, and some minor part of me still doesn't want me to do it...I would want to tell my therapist, because I would want him to try one last time to help change my mind about doing it. I would want him to please help me.... But if I am just kidding myself, and still don't have the guts to go through with suicide, and this is just suicide ideation, then I don't want to tell my therapist....because then it is just like crying wolf, more of the same whining....all talk no action. And I don't want to ask for extra help/support if I really have no intention of doing anything at all...if I am not at risk, then I am just wasting his time and making a big deal out of nothing. I would welcome any comments you might have - thank you.