I'm so sick of everything, I just want it all to go away. I have nothing to distract me anymore. I always come back to thinking about suicide. I zone off during conversations and end up thinking about death. If I try to listen to music, it doesn't work. I end up skipping "happy" songs and end up listening to things that make me more depressed or songs that remind me of things that I don't want to remember. Even on TV, there are commercials about antidepressants, commercials for things like Unisom (which I'm pretty sure I overdosed on a few weeks ago, not a life-threatening one, but not exactly pleasant). Shit, even on All in the Family yesterday, a man wanted to jump off of a building because he didn't get a job. Sometimes I think that suicide is following me. I hope it just hurries up and catches me.