Life is just progress to me, death is normal. Suicide seems normal, why would anyone want to live in a world where no one loved them, what point is living life when you can't find love. Suicide is a good thing to me, because it's a way out of all this, all this meaningless school business, all this respect this or that religon, all this girls only like pretty boys business. I seriously have nothing to live for, no family no friends. I besides i like sex and my mom scewed my head up over it and almost made me lose my attraction because of her beliefs. Everyone is so sexually repressed though, i think i'd rather just take death and pass up on it, i heard it wasn't that great anyways. . I'm glad because im tired of tasting the bitterness of life, the stink of it, the sad and confusing feelings it brings, and while it may be good to some it is not good to everyone. Every minute of my life is a question, false hope, a love not returned. And i ruined the one relationship that meant the most to me, it's not too late to fix it, but it's too much work and then again it may just be better to let it go. I can't say that i will miss anyone or anything about life. Suicide is death, sometimes it may be a symbol of dark death, or a symbol of something bad as people like to see it, a symbol of something wrong, but it is death all the same. Death just like being hit by a car, or dying in a fire, or dying at the end of your life. When your young people fill your head with bedtimes stories and disney movies telling everything will be alright, then you grow and you see none of it exist, people are cruel, and picky and at many times annoying, some may hit you, be cruel for no reason other than entertainment. But it does not mean they pay for it. Life is random, no good guys, no bad guys, no right, no wrong, just is. And i'm glad to be through with it. Altough i do wish i found someone to love before my life was over, it's too much work, and doesn't seem worht it in the end. Death doesn't know suicide, death is just death, the end of biological function.