Suicide is the only option that I have left. I've already been on several meds that didn't work. I wish that it weren't so, but it is. I just wish that there were something that they could do for me, but there's not. I suffer every day and constantly. I just want it to go away. I never used to be like this. I used to be happy and always felt good. This has been such a major change for me and I just can't deal with it. If it weren't so bad, maybe I could deal with it. I think that my brain is damaged and there is just nothing that anyone can do. What's weird is that all of my memories seem to be there and my body still functions fine. It's just that my brain and the way that it perceives the outside world is so much different. I always feel confused and see reality in a different way. I'm so sick and tired of feeling this way and just want it to go away. I think that in cases like mine that suicide is appropriate.