I am so tired. I should be happy and enjoy talking to people but I don't. I went to a therapist then put on several different pills nothing helped so I stopped seeing her. I know exactly how I would do it and when I think about it all of the tension and pain disappear. This is the first time I have been on a forum such as this. I am afraid that I won't die and have to live the aftermath which terrifies me. I am lost.