Hello. I am considering suicide. I am too nervous and or lazy to go looking for methods online. I was wondering if anyone here has considered suicide methods for potential scenarios in the future. If so, I'd love to hear them. I've thought firearms were a good way, but, I can't legally own a gun. I don't want to do drugs because I don't want to damage my organs and end up worse off than before. Since I figure people will ask me why I am pondering suicide: I am afraid that my roomate is spiking my food with an unknown substance. Everytime I eat food that I have left alone in the kitchen, I subsequently feel a really strong headache. I also feel like I cannot think straight. I am frightened that, if I am being poisoned, then it will cause permanent and or debilitating brain damage. I also have an oddly specific fear of developing certain schizophrenic symptoms like auditorty or visual hallucinations as a result of this "drug-induced brain damage". I'm not sure I'd want to live with that. I want options. I have numerous thoughts and feeling that are driving me nuts. The perceived lack of control, feelings of betrayl, fear of the unknown. I know that I cannot scientifically confirm or disprove wether or not I am being poisoned, so I feel like I'll never really know, which makes me feel bad. I already tried talking to my roomate about this. He said he isn't poisoning me, but I don't believe him because he is schizophrenic and has lied to me before. I also don't believe him because I don't like trusting most people. I know that I have a paranoia problem. Often, I get intuitive feelings that something may cause me harm, and I also will often get strong psychosomatic reactions related to my fears. For instance, yesterday, I was afraid that my jacket had been sprayed with pesticides. Everytime I put the jacket on, my skin started to hurt, even if I was wearing several layers of clothing underneath it. With regards to the so-called food poisoning, everytime I eat food that has been left alone in the kitchen, I get a strong headache and feel "brain fog", even if I try hard not to think about being poisoned. The problem with this process is that it is very counterintuitive. If one eats something and feels bad afterwards on multiple occassions, it seems reasonable that one might think the food (or whatever external factor) is the cause. Hypothetically, if all these reactions I am having to the food are the result of a mental disorder, then that means that my "symptoms" are psychosomatic in origin. Its very confusing, and makes it alot harder for me to know what is "real". Anyways, that is why I am posting here. Please list any suicide methods you think would be effective, not too gory, and not too difficult to arrange. Also, please don't suggest going to a therapist or psychiatrist as I've already done both. Thanks.