Hi I am a 22 year old male and normally very optimistic and try to live life to the fullest. Normally I would go out of my way to help others by lately I just don't feel like doing anything at all. I have a great bunch of friends and my family is also great but I have never been able to share any emotions/feelings with either my friends or family. I always am in a good mood around others even if I feel really down I will pretend to be in a good mood. During my high school year I was very happy and maybe got really angry to the point of rage maybe 5 times a year. Since this year started I get angry and really angry at just about everything I don't know why and I also try to keep my temper cool but that does not help. I am so afraid I might do something stupid like hurt somebody when I get angry that I am considering suicide because I doubt a psychiatrist will be able to help me. And I really don't want to hurt somebody but when I get into a fit of rage I don't have any control over what I do. I just feel so depressed lately I don't even care about anything anymore even stuff that used to be interesting to me. And I think it will be better for everyone if I just died and especially for me.