I have been planning a suicide. I don't have the thing I'm thinking of using to kill myself right now, but will get it in the next couple of days. I was working on a long term project, and I sent all my notes to my boss. I told him I wanted him to back them up. But I really wanted somoeone else to have them in case someone wanted to complete my research after I die. I also spent a lot of money on an expensive seafood dinner and also an expensive dinner for tomorrow and Italina patries. I figured I might as well spend all my money because I won't need it. I wanted to enjoy the last few days of my life as much as possible. I have incredible, excruciating physical pain. I am not really depresed, but the physical pain is so bad I have barely slept in four nights. The only worry is my friends. I have friends who love me. Will they be hurt? I mean, I konw they will be- but they will go on and forget about me, right? They will be sorry for a little while, then they will get over it. They will be fine in a few months and live will go on. Is that true? I don't want to hurt them, but I'm only one unmportant person and their lives will go on.