What can i say? Well my mind is taking over me and i dont think ill be around for much longer, im a egsitance in a place were i dont belong, there is no space in this world for me so i must put this right. I have a lovely daughter a loving family and a good group of friends, i love them all but i cant hack the life I am living. Im planing on giving my daughter the best christmas ever, Ill be spending the rest of this year with friends and family then my day will arrive 31/12/2010. I know its selfish taking my life and leaving everyone behind I also know its the only option. I'm sure they would understand if they was living my life. so far I have kept all this quiet and everyone thinks everything is normal, how do i prepair them to exspect something soon without letting them know what is going to happen?