Sunday, I am goign home..I don't want to go back home! I would rather die! I would rather die than to live any longer..I can't take it anymore! Sunday is the day I will go back home..(In the spirit way and in the physical way) I' going to commit suicide Sunday..and there is nothing anyone can do about it..I"m just going to pray to God to forgive me and "hope" that he does...I'm going to hope I don;t go to hell.. Don't bother giving me any advice because some advice pisses me off and I"m hard at accepting the truth.. The truth is I like someone who is too old for me and I refuse to believe its because I had no father figure, or something like that..I refuse to believe its infatuation..Someone just told me that..and it pissed me off because I"m tired of hearing it..Truth or not.! Don't even bother giving me any advice, because it won't be what I wanna hear!:wink: Nobody can change anything..NO ONE! I love him, and since thats the way it has to be then I might as well D-I-E-! I can not get over him, whether he is worth it or not! I fell to realize that he's not worth it, I fell to realize that I"m too young to die! Babies die everyday!:unsure: I'm going to commit suicide Sunday..and there is no way to convince me not to or to convince me that me and him have a chance, because..WE DONT! AND I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ADVICE THAT IS NOT GONNA MAKE ME SMILE! THATS THE WAY I AM..AND SINCE I'M LIKE THAT, THEN I MIGHT AS WELL DIE! CUZ NO ONE CAN LIVE THAT WAY, WHERE THEY GET EVERYTHING THEY WANT..ME..I NEVER GET WHAT I WANT! I HATE MYSELF..WHY ME? WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THIS PERSON?! UP AND DOWN UP AND DOWN...UP AND UP AND UP! IM PISSED..ITS LIKE A ROLLERCOASTER RIDE..AND I WANT TO GET OFF! THIS WON'T BE MY LAST POST.. MY LAST POST WILL HOPEFULLY BE SATURDAY NIGHT..hmy: I HATE THIS..I CANNOT LIVE LIKE T HIS..JUST CAN'T..IM TIRED OF CRYING EVERY SINGLE NIGHT! NOT GETTING ANY SLEEP..FORGET MY FAMILY, THEY ARE ALL SELFISH JUST LIKE ME! THEY ONLY CARE ABOUT THEMSELVES..!