this time, they are so strong. I feel empty, so fucking alone and honestly there is no one who will care if i am not here anymore. Sure there will be people at my funeral but hey, they carry on and they will act like if nothing has happened. that really hurts!! Today i have been crying all day. I see a therapist and a psychiatrist but i do not think they are helping enough. I am lost , i feel trapped against the wall. so tired of fighting with depression.