I'm a 15-year-old guy. I can't really think of a reason not to kill myself. The loneliness is killing me. I can be shy, but I talk too much sometimes. And I say really stupid/awkward/offensive things. I finally made friends for the first time in my life (real-life friends, as in not just on the internet) at the beginning of this school year, but of course I ruined it and the others got sick of me. I'm so lonely. There's a bunch of assholes and idiots at my school and they all have a shitload of friends. I talk to this girl in my math class every day, and I went to the mall with her and her friend once. But then they got to know me and they stopped talking to me, and started hanging out with a shy kid who never talked. At my old school, I always got picked on because I never talked. And she becomes friends with the girl I've wanted to be friends with for awhile now. It makes me so angry. And a kid came to visit our school for a week, and he had lunch with the girl and her friends. And he was there for 2 days. She and her friends always complain that their friend Mike is an asshole but they hang out with him anyways. I annoy everyone somehow. I offend them or say something awkward/retarded. The selfless thing to do would be to kill myself, since it would make everyone I know happy, right? I'm being selfish because I don't have the balls to actually do it. I'm wasting food, space, air, money and time. I hate myself so much, there's absolutely nothing good about me. I have no skills (but I can get conceited and think that I do), so it's not like I'm contributing anything to the world. I don't know what to do anymore.