Suicide? Yes or no?

[rockyhill]

I have in the past, when I was a lot younger. If I remember correctly, it wasn't so much a feeling that me and the world were in opposition, it was more like I was a loose cog in a machine, slowly being ground down by the indifferent gears of the mechanism. Is that sort of how you're feeling?

Yeah, I guess you could put it that way.

 

[Sunspots]

I've only had depression for a little less then a year

That's a long time to be feeling so shitty.
Have you spoken to anyone about how you're feeling? Family, friends, doctor?
What kind of support do you have?

 

[rockyhill]

That's a long time to be feeling so shitty.

It doesn't feel that way. I've spent every day wishing time could pass slower, so I had longer to make my decisions and sort my emotions.

Have you spoken to anyone about how you're feeling? Family, friends, doctor?

I've told my friends, and they comfort me every now and then, but I just hate wasting their time, especially since I know they're dealing with their own problems. And telling my family just made it worse.

 

[Sunspots]

And telling my family just made it worse.

In what way did it make it worse?

Have you spoken to a doctor?

 

[rockyhill]

In what way did it make it worse?

They either make a big fuss about me having depression and act like I could suicide at any moment, or just act like they don't care and forgot about it, and say things that are extremely offensive.

Have you spoken to a doctor?

No, I have not.

 

[Sunspots]

They either make a big fuss about me having depression and act like I could suicide at any moment, or just act like they don't care and forgot about it, and say things that are extremely offensive.

I'm sorry it hasn't been helpful. I don't know how old you are. Are you referring to parents?

No, I have not.

Do you think talking to a doctor is possible?

 

[Ting]

Same here. I actually said yes to this question too. I had a date. Also, I had a bucket list.
I am trying to finish it before the date coming.
Plus, I have been writing letters to every single person that I love as well.

 

[MarvelFan]

I'm just ready to surrender.

Do you think the world wants you dead or that is you that wants you dead?

Sorry to ask it but it is an important question. If the enviromental things wants you to end then you might be in a uphill battle that can take a toll on us, the same way inward things can take a toll but there is easier ways to battle that I think.

 

[rockyhill]

Do you think the world wants you dead or that is you that wants you dead?

I'm pretty sure the world wants me dead. Only me.

Sorry to ask it but it is an important question. If the enviromental things wants you to end then you might be in a uphill battle that can take a toll on us, the same way inward things can take a toll but there is easier ways to battle that I think.

It's fine if you ask.

 

[MarvelFan]

I'm pretty sure the world wants me dead. Only me.

It's fine if you ask.

If the world wants you dead then they sound to me that they are revengeful hateful people that dont like you and they sound like they suck pretty much to me. I know it might be hard but try not to dwell on those that want to see you fail at life because they have no right to choose if you live or die.