I don't know what to write...I am in Portugal and I am desperate. I have tried to kill myself twice. And tried again this last weekend with pills <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> and Gin tonic. It didn't work. I am so furious! I think I will have to take a more drastic way to take my life. I have been suffering with depression for the past 8 years. I have lost 2 jobs because of this disease and I am now unemployed. I am 37 years old, I don't have no boyfriend or children. I don't have any pleasure for life. I have tried everything to get better: medication, therapy, holistic medicine, mediums...and I am feeling the same way: I just want to die. I can't cope with this life, with people. I don't know what else to do, except find another way to finish with my life. Thanks for reading.