I don't see a way forward. The thing who abused me is powerful and a well respected attorney. A professional liar. My art is not good enough. My father died and the elder brother who used to have sex with me took control of everything and told me I couldn't come to the wake. I have inherited nothing. Not even a keepsake of his memory. I'm really trapped with this in my mind. It feels like the whole family is conspiring to push me to suicide. I've tried before. And in just the same way as these two brothers of mine would find a weakness and attack it in childhood, so they have ostracised me and maligned me in adult life. I think they want me dead Years ago I messed up my own marriage. I never see my son any more. My career is in the toilet.