suicide

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by nonamez, Sep 11, 2011.

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  1. nonamez

    nonamez New Member

    Well yeah I am feeling suicidal,
    I just completed my ALevels in the UK and
    got my results about 2 weeks ago. I didn't do
    as well as I expected.
    I literally worked so so so hard and at the end
    of it I didn't achieve the grades I needed to
    get into the medicine course at University.
    The problem is all I've ever wanted to be was
    a doctor and I tried soso hard and just didn't
    make it. In the 2 years it took to do my
    alevels every single failure has just upset me
    more and more and now I really don't see the
    point in life.
    Being a doctor means everything to me. The
    reason being, I lost quite a close fried just
    before I started alevel course and he commit
    suicide. This rereally upset me and I've talked
    about his death to my girlfriend at the time
    and still my girlfriend for over a year. I know
    that all I've wanted to do since that point is I
    wanted to be a doctor to help kids who feel
    like that.
    I turned 18 a few months back and I have felt
    this feeling ever since I realised I can't do
    medicine. Its all I want to do, I've asked
    universities to accept me up to the point of
    begging but I understand that it will never
    happen.
    My parents are v.supportive and told me to
    keep at it and as I asked them I told them
    make sure I stay in the house and just keep
    working till I get there. But realistically from
    the 2/3 weeks ago I got my results I know it
    will never happen and I just don't know what
    is the point in living this life when I am just
    empty.
    Idk why I am posting on here I just feel like I
    need someone to talk to:/
     
  2. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support

    Hi, nonamez. Welcome to SF.

    I'm sorry you're so low at the moment, and I'm sorry you lost your friend to suicide. :hug:

    Lots of people don't make it into the courses for med school on their first try. I would keep up your hopes and plan on re-trying later. Another option might be a degree that fulfils your desire to help others, such as a clinical psychologist's degree. Perhaps this would be a good time to speak with a career counselling service to do some interests and aptitudes exploration. And remember that getting into med school isn't "just" grades, it includes community/volunteer work, leadership, reference letters - all do-able while you start on other courses. Sometimes having a degree behind us already gives us an edge on getting into the advanced and specialized programs later.

    I really think that you have a chance at finding a meaningful and rewarding goal and career - whether it is to try for med school again at a later date or to find an alternative career in which you can help.

    Keep posting and let us know how it's going. Stay safe! :hug:
     
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