The other day everything went to hell, I could not stand to be in public or to face the only person I have been completely honest with. I just could not do it, everything went black all I could think about was suicide. I tried to get my mind off it and could not after a while it overwhelmed me. I went looking for xx and could not find one. I then xxx, it held for just only a few mineuts and then broke. I have never felt so empty,I just wanted death. All the thoughts began to fill my brain of what brought me here and I was helpless. I then told the one person in the world of what happened the last year of my life the bullshit of being harrassed every single day even at my home. I have never shared this with anyone and I am now just terrified she doesn't believe me I am ultimately just stuck,.