I have managed to stay "clean" for the whole summer but i cant stop thinking about how my next scar will feel. I have this images in my head and nightmares too. sometimes im sittnig in the buss and cant do nothing else but to cry in dispair. But autnum is starting soon here, meaninig no more short sleves clothes. Meaning i can go back to it withouth nobody judging me or pissing me off about it again. Sheesh i just needed to get all these out of my chest. Does it happen to any of u? to stop during season and starting over when long sleeves are bareable?