hey figured i'd post because i could get online.. won't try to ramble to much but recently my best friend decided she was going to start taking guitar lessons again, and my favorite band is coming back for a reunion show which had me very excited and as happy as i can pretty much remember being in years [they haven't played together publicly in over 3 1/2 years] anyway summer started on a okay note and i had some days when i was all over joyed and wanted to write some things so i did... wrote this on the front of my summer oh nine song book. "Going to write in here so i have something to sing, something to share to the world. so others like me can know they aren't alone something to look at and work on. so i have something to move forward with so when this summer ends. it can hopefully live on in songs and music. memories for me to remember the summer of change the summer of my f-ing future. because nothing will ever be the same again." so that's, that. 1. this doesn't have a name and i wrote it after a fight with my mother who is nuts.... become so f-ing sick of pretending that everything is okay life is not a-oh-f-ing-kay-kay? only really talk when your not ready to listen are you ever ready too? try to vocalize, just everything that has gone wrong got so sick of you turning a blind eye won't make these problems go disappear i'm so sick, sick of this fighting so sick i tried so hard to please nothing i ever did was enough constantly disappointing me got so sick got so tired of all this shit all the hoops i jumped through trying to impress well took me years finally going to be free won't let you bring me down bring me down no more so yeah they could be tons better but that was the first stuff i wrote in like over four years so at least it's something...and at some point they'll be like not so terrible. but yeah..okay..