I've been so fucking mean to my parents, when all they really want to do is save me. I was going to die, and they shoved food down my throat for the past 3 years and saved my life. I just wish I could show them that I care, that I really want to thank them. I almost tore apart their relationship because of my eating disorder, it cost them so much money, and they still love me. Why am I such a bitch? I just wish that someday I will wake up and really be able to appreciate what they have done for me.