I don't look good, I've got a nasally sounding voice, I've got a couple different personality disorders. To top it all off I don't find a relationship with someone that is unattractive to be appealing to me. Trying to find someone that is visually appealing and has a compatible personality and that actually likes me in return is pretty much impossible... I mean I'm not looking for a beauty queen, just a girl of average beauty, one that doesn't make me go "ugh.." when I look at her. I know it's a total pot calling kettle black scenario but that's what I'm stuck with.. I find it difficult to even start to look for someone that fits the profile that I'd like because of a couple reasons A: people tend to be a 180 degree version of themselves when they're met in real life as opposed to talking to them online. B: I feel off just straight up asking for pictures off the bat cuz I don't want to start things off with "hi, I'm superficial ugly guy, will your looks be good enough for me? oh sorry, but this is all I have to offer." But on the other hand I don't want to hurt the other person by holding off on asking for pics then sidelining them after I find out their looks are not good. I mean admittedly I'm a bit superficial but I'm not a total dick. I would rather hurt myself than to hurt someone else.