Well its been a while since I visited SF. Today I felt the depression well up and so I absently just googles 'depression'. Then I got mad. Just angry. I came across Beyond Blue - the Australian depression initiative funded by the government. I reminded me of all the times I was on the edge - struggling to not commit suicide when all I had was my little peep whole out there to the world - the internet. For me, and I know so, so many people, the internet - sites like SF - have been the only way to get any kind of comfort. Then there are sites like Beyond Blues. The issue I take is this: its censored. Its divorced from reality. Its full of primitive advice - "If you are feeling down, go see your doctor!" Yeah, sure. Then theres the my stories section. I though 'Great! Here's somewhere where I can connect with real people who share my illness'. But no. These are only 'good news' stories: 'I had depression, but now I dont. Don't give up!'...Well thats great for you, but how on Earth does that help me? Try posting a 'bad' story on there, something like 'I'm not feeling that great at the moment - can anyone give me some advice to avoid hurting myself?' and see how far that gets you. Well it wont get published for one. Even worse is trying to send an email for advice. 'Hey can you tell me where there are people meeting in some kind of a support group for sufferers of depression?' You'll get pointed to the yellow pages. Look, I know I am coming across as negative. I'm just angry that these sites that profess to find you answers are just so filtered and only scrape the surface of the depression issue. Go to far with your questions and your seeking of help and you will be ostracised and feel a lot worse. Ask for help and you will feel as though your are running on a treadmill - putting the work in but getting no where. I just dont like that (in Australia) this site and initiative represent the 'face' of the depression issue - ie that its not serious and everything will be ok if you just see your doctor and ride it out. As the vast majority of people here will tell you, that simply is not true. Anyway, now for some good news! I have been moderately successful in my campaign to provide support for those suffering depression, anxiety and bipolar who have been involuntarily hospitalised against their will. These 'patients' are now to be provided with an 'Allied Person' who will side with them and hopefully get them out quicker (actually, this was a legal requirement eariler, just the hospitals did not know about it!!!!). The 'patients' are also given an explanatory document of there legal rights as involuntary patients. Finally, staff were apparently given a lecture on patient respect. I know its only a small thing, but I hope I have made a difference to someones life! Next I plan to deliver a load of books to the ward, as there is nothing to read their currently but one single newspaper. Haha anyway, rant over!