I have a very small support system of two friends and a thearpist and psychologist. Tonight one of my close friends tells me she is tired of being on the emotional rollercoaster with me and needs off. She doesn't want to hear about my drama and feelings anymore I guess. I feel so lonely right now...it just retieraites why be here. There is no room for me in this world. I continue to hurt people around me. I know she doesn't mean to hurt me but she pushes me closer to escaping the pain of this world. Does she think I want to be on this emotional rollercoaster....but its okay for me to ride alone I guess. To top it off I'm having problems with my therarpist I told her three weeks ago I wanted to stop meds and stop seeing her and walked out. I have since gone back to her but things seem awkward between us. Why go on?