hi guys I am new here. greetings to everyone. I learn English as a second language. I hope you don't mind. I am looking for people who might help me to overcome fear of death. I don't want to live but at the same time fear death. I would like to be brainwash or sth just like all those people who suicide with pleasure in the name of religious stuff for instance. They die with smiles on their faces. I want to be like those people so that I don't fear death etc. Please, help me.