This is extremely difficult for me to talk about, and I'm terrified at even mentioning this - especially to my therapist. I've NEVER mentioned this to anyone before!!! Actually sharing it right now is a first - EVER, but not sure if I should even suggest this (or open this door) with my therapist tomorrow. Seven years ago I went through something that for me was EXTREMELY traumatic. I can't seem to convey just how traumatic it was to me to professionals, or they just can't seem to grasp it, and because of that it's felt as though it's been minimized by professionals. However, what I haven't told one single professional is that I've carried a strong sense of paranoia since. I got in trouble for something that I didn't knowingly do, and as such live in constant terror of something similar happening again. I also am horrified with the idea of it being found out (which could realistically happen cuz I have a record cuz of it now.) The fear began as definitely serious but more mild in nature, but over the past couple years has grown into downright terror for no valid reason. Recently I have been dealing with a person who is trying to make me out to be some horrible person that I'm not. While it is a fact about this person doing this it isn't helping my already pre-existing paranoia (terror); it's simply adding to it even though it's justified. I realize paranoia is usually unjustified, at least in most cases, but I can see how that is beginning to happen with me. However, until recently I wasn't afraid someone was out to get me; just that the trauma that happened would be found out, would be misinterpreted, and no one would be willing to know the truth. Now, it feels like my entire world is going to come undone, and I'm going to lose everything I've worked so hard for over the past few years. I'm EXTREMELY leery of mentioning this to my therapist!!!!!!!!!!!! On some level I think it would be wise to share it, but on the other hand I'm not convinced I should open that door with her, either. Just not sure what to do. I'm not trying to make a mountain out of a molehill, but things are beginning to feel more extreme than ever before. It's reaching the point where I'd be totally content not even leaving my house anymore. It's becoming that paralyzing!! Any suggestions?