Hello Everyone,
As everyone will know i went in for surgery on monday morning.
Today i found out that the operation has been unsuccessful as i was reporting more pain than normal in my head. This was confirmed when i got my blood results back. I was told before hand the operation could makes thing worse instead of better, it seem's this has happened.
When i got the results back i hit an all time low, i am finding this very difficult to deal with. No one understands much about this condition and i am scared of what is happening to me and my body. All i want todo is live on to help others and make people around me happy. I live for nothing else.
I have no underlying message to deliver in this message, i have am loosing hope everyday of my life because my health is out of my hands.
It's strange because i was making myself something to eat tonight and while cutting some bread i thought about stabbing myself in the heart to end this pain. I imagine i would die quick and one would be able to save me. I want my body to die and my mind to live on. I wish i could change my body with someone elses and live a normal life, free of pain.
Kind Regards,
Your Friend
As everyone will know i went in for surgery on monday morning.
Today i found out that the operation has been unsuccessful as i was reporting more pain than normal in my head. This was confirmed when i got my blood results back. I was told before hand the operation could makes thing worse instead of better, it seem's this has happened.
When i got the results back i hit an all time low, i am finding this very difficult to deal with. No one understands much about this condition and i am scared of what is happening to me and my body. All i want todo is live on to help others and make people around me happy. I live for nothing else.
I have no underlying message to deliver in this message, i have am loosing hope everyday of my life because my health is out of my hands.
It's strange because i was making myself something to eat tonight and while cutting some bread i thought about stabbing myself in the heart to end this pain. I imagine i would die quick and one would be able to save me. I want my body to die and my mind to live on. I wish i could change my body with someone elses and live a normal life, free of pain.
Kind Regards,
Your Friend