I may as well be dead. I mean after all, I have no true friends. Plenty of people who claim to be my friends... but they don't mean it. I'm selfish... look.. I only come here to moan about myself.. I never offer anyone else support. I claim it's because I'm shy, and am scared to post... but I'm just selfish... that's the real reason. Everyone at work hates me, and I'm crap at my job anyway. I can't even play netball properly anymore because i've lost all enthusiasm. My parents hate me. I'm a failure. Some of my "friends" are hurting, and I can't do anything to help them because i'm so wrapped up in my own shit. It would be better off all round if I wasn't here. I wouldn't be a burden... no one would have to "pretend" to care... everyone can be happy. I'm surplus to requirements. I have no use... no purpose. I'm supposed to be 22 this month... I don't want to make it.