So just how do you continue to fight when all around you each and everyday is nothing, but negativity. For the last 6 years I have lived with my grandmother taking care of her health has gotten worse and worse each year. During that time I have lost best friends, became suicidal, became depressed, low self esteem, and most of all I have lost my life. What makes me feel even more of a loser and that nothing will change is I am 37. When negativity is around you just how do you deal with it? This weekend I will compete in my first bodybuilding show. I am nervous and excited. I have worked my butt off and I was feeling proud of myself. Today I asked my mother was she coming to watch. Her response...."Why would I want to go and watch you do something stupid and watch a bunch of idiots." So, the confidence and feeling proud of myself just went out the window. So what is the answer? How do you live when each day you are being "beaten" by negativity from your surrounding?