Im trapped in this body Raging to come out, Theres words in my mind That I do need to shout. I want to leave this world Yet I want to survive, Im facing so much pain Yet Im still here alive. The hurt and the suffering Taunting my mind, Im lost and Im broken Its me I cannot find. My mind is really puzzled Can I really survive, But Ive come this far already And Im still here alive. There is some part of me That doesn't want to go, So I need to stay strong And take each day quite slow. My mind is just a battle Deciding to survive, But so far I succeed As Im still here alive. This feeling within me Is so overwhelming, I need some direction Like a boat that needs helming. I need to stay focused I need to survive, I cannot give up I need to stay alive. Grasping that control Over my mind, Only then its possible That myself I will find. I just want to die Yet I want to survive, So let my mind battle Because right now Im alive! Im still here today And hopefully tomorrow, I need to look ahead And hold back the sorrow. I will try to SURVIVE I will find the strength, I will try to be ALIVE, I will give my life more length! - I don't know if this poem even makes sense to you all, but just reading this over makes me realise how confused I am and how much my mind battles in deciding whether to take my own life or not! Part of me wants to because of the pain and I feel beyond help, but there's a part of me that just doesn't want to!