Survived 13th attempt

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by AfterFact, Jan 4, 2010.

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  1. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    I took <Mod Edit: IrishDoll,Methods> My heartrate is up, and I have collapsed on the floor just a few minutes ago.
    Im fucking scared right now, I even said I was going to fucking live, someone please help me, im fucking shaking.
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  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Please call an ambulance or have someone take you to a hospital.
    Are you alone?
  3. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    Sorry about any scares I am ok, though I didnt go to a hosptial. Still hurt, but I will live.
  4. Mr.11

    Mr.11 Well-Known Member

    Good to know you're OK.

    There could be some damage you don't know about. Best to still go to the hospital, eh? Just in case.
  5. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    Im not ready to be found out quite yet.
  6. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    It turns out I am hurt more than I thought, I have limited lowerbody strength.

    EDIT: Im recovering, still not well though. I post my condition at around 9:00 or so, as my computer is being taking away again so I have to sneak downstairs(I am 13).
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  7. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    Turns out I cant edit right now, which is weird.

    Anyway I am fine now, though I still didnt good help which is quite weird because I could have sworn I did, must have been a dream or something. I still have a hard time moving, but I can now and my parents havent noticed anything.
    I fear this is only the begining though, if there was a god I think I would be praying right now.
  8. Little_me

    Little_me Well-Known Member

    Go to the hospital, please :hug:
  9. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    No need to, I am completely fine now.
  10. Little_me

    Little_me Well-Known Member

    How do you know? You might not notice...
  11. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    I have had much worst brushs with death and survived without treatment.
  12. Colourful

    Colourful Well-Known Member

    Please go to a don't know if something else could be wrong.
  13. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    If there was something else wrong I am pretty sure I would noticed in the form of pain. And anyway I know there is something else wrong, but nothing one week of not hurting myself wont fix. In other words im a fucking moron and a coward and I dont have the guts to tell me parents to take me to the hospital while on the way explaining that I am a sucidial depressant
  14. WildCherry

    WildCherry ADMIN

    The fact that you aren't in pain doesn't mean nothing is wrong. Taking just one OD can cause serious internal damage, and that damage may not show itself in the way of pain; but it could have long-lasting effects. You need to get to a hospital and have yourself checked out to make sure you haven't done any permanent damage.
  15. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    I see where your coming from, but I have had 7 overdoses in the past 7 months, this is my 8th, and I have had long lasting effects, but they stopped in the end, if any of the overdoses have damaged me, one more wont make a difference.
  16. WildCherry

    WildCherry ADMIN

    Actually, one more can make a LOT of difference. If there is any damage at all, then each OD will cause more damage. If you don't get treated, then at some point, the damage may become irreparable. You need to go to the hospital.
  17. AfterFact

    AfterFact Well-Known Member

    I could care
    less of damages. I just tried to kill myself for christ's sake.
  18. supermodel

    supermodel Well-Known Member

    After Fact

    Many people here have attempted suicide. Including myself.

    I have figured out that suicide is NOT the answer to your problems.

    There are many that have attempted suicide, failed, and are now paralyzed. They have placed themselves in much WORSE condition than they started.

    It is NOT worth it. You're so young.

    As hard as it is...even for me....keep living and take ONE day at a time.

    I know I'm throwing a lot of cliches out there but you can't live life for the bad times. I've learned that in my journey. And your journey is just starting out.
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