I have only made one real attempt on my life, around this time last year. I will admit I have thought of slitting my wrists and taking pills, but last year I really had gone through with it with a clear mind. I wrote an apology letter, disposed of items I did not want found, < Mod Edit - Method > It was a horrible, horrible experience. My face burned up, my eyes were burning and I was in agony. I started to finally feel so much pain and dizziness. As I was finally drifting into sleep (or I guess passing out) I felt like I was flying and I fell on the ground, hard. Ended up the rod broke with my weight and it totally fell on the ground along with me. When I woke up my throat was in SO much pain, so much phlegm and my vision was blurry. I at first was in total denial of what I had done, I laughed about being to heavy to hang myself properly. It took a day to sink in that I was still alive, and on that night I cried so much. I haven't spoken about it or thought about it in a while, but the holidays are just not my favorite time of year... sorry if I am making anyone uncomfortable. I have never known of anyone to actually hang themselves and survive, I guess I needed to do it better.