Not going to go into detail about my life but its to do with a recent relationship breakdown and kids involved. When the relationship first broke down 6 months ago I went out to hang myself but for some reason I went back into the house and didn't go through with it. Although in my mind I was ready and fully prepared and knew I would be gone in the next hour or so. My sister was kind enough to take me in and look after me which she has done wonders for me but it just wasn't enough. I thought things would get better but some obstacles along the way prevented me from getting on with my life and being able to get over things. I have been diagnosed with severe depression due to the events happening 6 months ago and it has slowly got worse over the last 6 months, I am still unable to come to terms with things. Yesterday all became too much for me to handle and take on board, lunchtime I decided it was time to go. I took a very large number of pills in that mixing a large amount of <Mod Edit:Music:Methods> My sister found me laying on the bed fitting and unresponsive, she called the ambulance. When they arrived I was immediately taken down to the ambulance and my sister wasn't allowed in the ambulance as I had to be resuscitated. Once I was breathing again they forced me to drink some charcoal and then rushed to the hospital where I was placed on a drip. I came round late last night. I was released this afternoon. I have to see my GP tomorrow to arrange medication for my depression and also now have to regularly see a member of the mental health team for counselling and general talks about my issues. I have been labelled as high risk as the likelihood of me attempting again is fairly high. Had my sister not called the ambulance when she did and had they not forced me to drink the charcoal I was told I wouldn't have made it through the night. Do I regret it? No not really, I wanted to die yesterday or I wouldn't have done it. Will I attempt again? Probably as my life is still the same obviously being only a day later and I still feel the same. When or how I don't know as I didn't plan this one in advance. Do I think with the right help I can get through this? I really don't know. The problem with me apart from my severe depression is that what I want out of life is never going to happen anymore and I don't feel I can live with that. Maybe the help I get may solve this but I am unsure and not hopeful if I am completely honest. I wonder if anyone else has had a similar experience and if you have managed to get on with your life, I just don't know what to do anymore. Now I have been through this I'm not even scared anymore which is the worry that next time (if there is a next time) I may not be so lucky.