Not certain about a&e but might not of given it to you because they figured you probably threw it all up. Did they suggest a stay in hospital and or a pward? Did they keep you at all after you got there? Just curious. Hold on to the few positives you have. Keep them tight in your grasp so that you can keep finding the strength you need to hold on. Yes getting away from the negative crap of their father will make a big difference too. Keep posting. It does help to know someone else is listening.