By my real parents ive been left and been an orphan,got adopted by a family which my adoptive mother was an alcoholic and did beat me as a child for all my childhood,they got divorced and im living with my adoptive dad which is drinking vodka everyday,and can lose his temper easily since he punched me in the stomach and more. Which is why i cant let myself close to them and i may never know my real family since theres no information i can get to find them. The treatment from my family,being beat up,emotionally abused with words and wasnt supported by them either. They didnt support me to encourage me i can do things which is why now as an adult i dont have confidence in myself. Been suicidal since i was in grade school and cut my arm which now i have to live with scars. Attempted many times. I even <Mod Edit - Methods> in the past and been unconscious for 3 days and my adoptive parents didnt even called ambulance,they waited to see if id wake up. if i didnt wake up the 4th day ,later then they would have called ambulance, why did they even wait for so long?! Geez.. Its a fucking miracle i survived <Mod Edit - Methods> the while being unconscious for 3 days. tbh i wish i didnt,because im still depressed and miserable with life wishing id attempt again.