I'm new to this forum but em.. I didn't know where else to go. I tried killing myself several times and the last time being 2 years ago when i swallowed <mod edit-gentlelady-methods>. i was found and was in intensive care for days. After this attempt I was yet once in therapy and the theraist was really really good. i started feeling better. i moved abroad to get away from it all. it helped a while. but only a while. lately i'm starting to feel worse again and have no one to talk to or turn to and i'm too scared to tell anyone or see the GP. I don't know what to do so i found this forum. it's nice in a way that there are other people out there like me but it also breakes my heart that we are so many feeling so shit. I guess my afteraffects are that, wellf irst of all the amount put me in intensive care, i couldn't walk properly for weeks due to weird after effects of pills, therapy and antidepressants and seeing people mad and dissapointed. and the fact that i woke up alive. anyone else out there that bounced back but finding themselves feeling really bad again?