December 5 was the most recent time this has happened. I don't know what happened, but I hurt someone I really loved. I ended up taking an overdose of pills, and that left me with bad damage. I did not go to the hospital or anything, I just layed down for a while. Later I started feeling super dizzy and was freaking out. I did not want to die just yet. I ended up trying to puke up the pills. I didn't think it worked because I took the pills in the morning and it was eleven at night when this all happened. So I gave up. I went to sleep, assuming I wouldn't wake up. But, I did. And I felt AWFUL. I still had to go to school though. Man, it sucked. All I could think about was my failure. I never really considered myself a survivor, more like a failiure. Sometimes I feel like that is not going to be the last time that happens. But I cannot really promise anything.