I've known this but sometimes I forget it. I did some terrible things in my past but that's what happens in situations like the one I was in. I was simply trying to survive and did what I thought I had to. Sure what they did to me changed me forever and there is a dark side to me now but there is also my good , caring heart which is seen more often than not. What happen was not and never will be right. Things like that should never happen even though a part of me rationalizes it as necessary. I was not responsible for what happened however. I was merely a victim of the circumstances. I am and forever will be what they made me.