I want this to be a short post. It has been some time since I last posted here. Since that I time I have left my partner (a good thing) however a month after leaving her, she claimed to be pregnant. Of all the worlds’ wonders, yes she is. Sincerely, I see no point, no value in living in a world where people will control and manipulate my destiny, and where liars and cheats are rewarded. I Just don’t get why I should be grateful at all the wonders in my life like birds and old trains, when I am nothing more than a slave. I try to think that all in al, it’s worth 15% of my income FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE to be free of her, but I’ve now lost what will be my first child. It makes me ill, the earth the way these things work. Don’t concern over much, I have a family that needs me, and until my mother and sister are gone, I’ll bear the burden of living. I have at least another 20 years before they should pass and I’m free to leave. But what a miserable thing. I’ve failed. I’m now nothing more than white trash with an unwanted child with a former partner, an unfinished degree, and no trade skills. That’s it. I’m out.