I know this sounds selfish but I feel trapped because my wife won't swing with me. she understands that I can't love another but just doesn't want to see me with others. she says she wants me all to herself. I feel like she is being selfish. I've had feelings like this since childhood and I have just been able to come out with it a year ago. I've been considering suicide lately... yea I know you think I think about sex too much but this is me.